We want, but are stubborn
We have a lot of Cd’s and tapes around the house, My Family loves music even though Me and My Mon were tone deaf, I’ve always wanted to learn how to play instrument like violin and piano or any classic instrument when I was a kid, My family isn’t that fortunate we were only blessed, listening to instrumental music makes me emotional. even though I was tone deaf, gives me something that joy, happiness ease my pain, makes me laugh, cry, because of the memories , the music revives my memories reminds me of the happy stuff, the part that God gives me a purpose in life and not to waste it, makes me cry because I was sentimental that day or that week (I listen to the songs the is very emotional so that’s the reason that makes me cry), music is one of my best friend when I was bothered by so many things when I think I don’t have a purpose. I got good passion about music, but I still don’t know how to play any instruments our home have so many instruments, when I was in high school the passion died in pursuing to play an instrument, but I’m still intact with music, and the passion revive when I was 4th year high school when my sister learn some music in piano, then My Dad bought me a violin I was so eager to learn how to play it, but I don’t know where to start , where to go for lesson, I don’t know how I can pay for the lessons. then college came I lost that dream, the dream of becoming a violinist or a pianist. then 1st year, 2nd semester, I’m loosing my mind, I don’t know what course to pursue, I wanted arts, photography or anything that I want to do, but because my family can’t afford the tuition fee on the school I want I’m stuck with computer science, today I want to shift to a new course (Information Technology) but it’s to late I’m Incoming 3rd year college student, so I don’t know what to do right now. I’m just keep putting lies to my head that I can do it. but in reality I can’t face the hardness of this course. so I’m just praying to God that “Lord, fill my head with truth, tell me that I can do this”. right now I’m still waiting and I’m searching for Piano and Violin lessons too. We want something in life, like passion, what we want in life, we want to run but our reason is “I don’t have a running shoes” you have a shoe why don’t you run. My dad was able to provide me a violin all I need was the passion to learn how to play it he always tells us that “nandian na lahat alamin mo nalang kung pano gamitin”, because we are stubborn, we are blinded for what we don’t have all we need is the passion to do it.
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